Giving it all to Jesus through Mary

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To Jesus through MaryEarlier this year I made the Total Consecration to Jesus through Mary. I had known about the Total Consecration for a few years through friends who had completed it. I even had the book, Preparation for Total Consecration to Jesus Christ Through Mary, that someone had given me. But I put the idea out of my mind. I was not interested.

Why did I need to consecrate myself? I had a daily prayer life, prayed the  rosary on most evenings with my family, went to Eucharistic Adoration regularly, and tried to get to Holy Mass on Saturday morning as well as on Sunday. Wasn’t that enough? But there was a longing and a restlessness inside me that I just couldn’t satisfy.

One day as I was looking for something at home, I came upon the total consecration book. Curious, I picked it up and started skimming through the pages. I became so engrossed in it that I forgot what I was looking for in the first place.

“I think I’d like to make a total consecration to Jesus through Mary,” I announced to my spiritual director.

“Wonderful,” he replied. “I think it will be good for you.”

But I was still hesitant. Consecrating my life to Jesus through Mary meant entrusting Our Blessed Mother with my life and through her, abandoning myself to the Will of Our Lord. It was a scary prospect since I didn’t want to let go of whatever control I thought I had. Where would Jesus take me? What would He ask of me? What would happen to my plans?

Despite my trepidation, I felt compelled to begin. After checking in with my spiritual director for some final instructions and words of encouragement, I opened the book and began the month-long preparation for total consecration.

It was a beautiful experience. As each day began and ended, I eagerly completed the prayers and devoured the pages of instruction, inspiration, and catechesis. The restlessness and longing that had gnawed at me for so many months vanished.

“It is certain that growth in holiness is your vocation,” wrote St. Louis de Montfort and I wanted it all: “the life of holiness to which we are called as a result of our belonging completely to Jesus Christ.”

When I had finished the month – long preparation and finally made my total consecration, it was almost anti-climactic. I imagined that the final Act of Total Consecration would feel like there were fireworks going off inside me. In fact, I prayed The Act of Total Consecration of Oneself one evening after Holy Mass and noticed how quiet the church was and how calm I was. It made sense. Like Mary, we are called to live our lives quietly in the Holy Spirit, seeking only the Will of the Father. There are no fireworks, and no grand excitement, but instead there is a deep conviction to grow in holiness and sanctity by God’s grace and the care of our Mother. Our lives, like our Blessed Mother, ought to consist of constant prayer and good deeds and to do whatever God asks of us in whatever place and time He has placed us.

Does total consecration make you a living saint? Most definitely not. Abandoning yourself to Jesus through Mary does not guarantee a life that is free from temptations and sinfulness; but “in turning to Our Lady and entrusting ourselves into her care we will find that we have already begun to act according to the spirit of Jesus Christ, the first to have trusted Himself into the care of Our Lady.”

When we make the Total Consecration to Jesus through Mary, what we are promising to Our Lord and Our Blessed Mother is this: take my life and everything about it. Take my plans, my possessions, all that I love, all that I hate, all that I dream of, all that I have accomplished, all that I have failed. You are in control. I am nothing. You are everything. Do whatever You want with me. I know that in the good times and the bad, Your hand will guide, Your hand will save, Your Will be done.

“Tuus totus ego sum, et omnia mea tua sunt. I am all yours, and all that I have is Yours, O my dear Jesus, through Mary, Your holy Mother.”

Source: Gillespie, H. (2011). Preparation for Total Consecration to Jesus Christ Through Mary According to St. Louis de Montfort. New York: Montfort Publications.

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19 Responses to Giving it all to Jesus through Mary

  1. dgcree says:

    Hi Terry,
    May your consecration be a source of abundant grace.

  2. SR says:

    I have never heard it explained so beautifully, Terry. Thanks for making me reflect back on my on Consecration. God Bless, SR

  3. Anabelle @Written By The Finger of God says:

    Terry, this is beautiful. You said it, peace is Our Lady’s gift. LOL on your reading the book, finding yourself engrossed and forgetting what the original question was. You found what you didn’t know what you were looking for.

  4. jmsabbagh says:

    Beautiful act of love and faith.Mary is the essence devotion.Blessings.jalal

  5. Congratulations, good for you.

  6. I love reading the story of your consecration, Terry. Thank you for sharing.

  7. lilyboat says:

    Hi Terry! It has been a while, hasn’t it? I have been away, focusing on transforming my life.. in a quiet way. 🙂 I have started my graduate degree in Counseling! I am about to finish my first semester. Anyhow, this post gave me a lot of thoughts.. it’s surprising how synchronized the thoughts you shared in this post are with the way I am trying to live my life these days. Thank you so much for sharing this insightful post! I won’t be posting much for a while(in my own blog) but I will often come back and read your wonderful writings. As they have guided me through my hard times– and shall continue to be my guide. Blessings to you!!!

    • Lilyboat! Thank you for letting me know that you are well. Congratulations on starting your graduate program in counselling. I have every confidence that you will be successful. I’m so glad this post helped you. I was reluctant to write it because it is so personal but felt that maybe it could help someone. Please keep in touch and let me know how you are. Take care, dear Lilyboat.
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  8. reinkat says:

    thanks for the information on this process. I find myself confused by this idea of “consecration”. Consecration to the Sacred Heart, Consecration to the Immaculate Heart of Mary, Consecration to Jesus Christ through Mary . . . To my embarassment, I am still unclear. What does each mean, how does one choose, or are they all different ways to say the same thing?

    • Hi Reinkat, that’s a great question. Consecration means to completely surrender our lives so whether we consecrate ourselves to the Sacred Heart, or to the Immaculate Heart of Mary, or to Jesus through Mary, the result is still the same. In each of these different consecrations, it is Jesus to whom we ultimately surrender.

      • reinkat says:

        One more question? Or two? Does it have to be a formal process? As I grow in faith and love of God, it seems that this is where the conversion of heart is leading on its own. If you do choose to follow a formal process, is it done privately/individually, or is it a larger, perhaps liturgical, sort of promise?

      • The book I used which I reference at the bottom of the post says that you can undergo the month long process privately or with a group. I did it privately. You can plan the month long preparation so that you finish all the readings just before a Marian feast and make your Act of Total Consecration on that feast. Alternatively you can do what I did – preparation during the Marian month of May and Consecration as soon as the month’s readings were finished. You can complete the Act of Total Consecration prayer privately or with other people. Again, I did it privately after Friday evening Mass. There are a few books of Total Consecration. I was given 2 different ones but used the one advised by my spiritual director.

      • reinkat says:

        Thank you. It’s so very interesting, and all new to me. Many blessings to you.

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